Getting a little frisky on a Tuesday. I love sheer tops and this one is equal parts sexy and chic. Also, Blake decided I kind of look like a superhero so I will roll with that. Heidi Merrick is one of my absolute FAV California designers…

Writing these sentences almost still feels like a dream. Well, I should rephrase, it actually feels like a nightmare. If you or someone close to you has battled with infertility, I wish I could reach out and hug them through the screen….

  • April 20, 2017 - 2:58 am

    ilysa Lapides - I cannot write as the tears in my eyes after reading what you wrote obstructing my vision. The infertility issues that you and Blake have gone through and continue to do so or one that I would not wish on anyone. I often wonder why some people have no problems in their life and others have many. Difficulties that we can do to make us stronger. My heart goes out to both of you as you know that we have been in contact throughout this experience that you and Blake have had and how important family is to me. I know this is going to happen for both of you and I am looking forward to the future I just hope this is going to be easier for you from now on. Love and hugsReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 2:58 am

    Brooke - You are both very strong and brave for sharing this story. We love you and support you always! ❤️ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 5:43 am

    Annie Wilson - Kimberly, my heart goes out to you and Blake. I admire your strength and courage in coming forward with you story, the world needs more people like you in it. I just know you will get to have the family you want one way or another xxReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 1:08 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you so much Annie. I so appreciate all the kind words and support. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 6:17 am

    Olivia - Ugh this breaks my heart, sending my prayers. It’ll all work out!
    http://Www.oliviaschueller.comReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 7:00 am

    Angela Rodriguez - ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love you and your strength. Enormous hugs.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 8:48 am

    Kate - Kimberly, I just wanted to let you know that I read every word and I think it’s so brave and so important that you shared your story. I’ve had a couple of people very close to me struggle in various ways in having babies and you truly never know what people are going through. I think it’s so, so important to help each other through things like this so they don’t feel so alone, and simply sharing your story is one of the biggest and best ways to do that. With tears in my eyes, I commend you on your strength and I hope with all my heart this round results in nothing but pure happiness!!ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 1:10 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you so much Kate. My hope was that opening up would help others know they are not alone, and whether it’s me or someone else, I am here to listen and be supportive. THANK YOU so much for your love. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 10:52 am

    Allie - <3 <3 <3ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:31 am

    Sydney - This was really beautiful and honest. So much good luck on your pregnancy journey, and I truly hope it happens for you.

    I follow another blogger who had difficulties getting pregnant, and after a miscarriage, sought IVF treatment. She’s now nearing the end of her pregnancy! Here are the two posts she wrote regarding her struggle (she wrote others on her struggles, but these seemed most relevant); it might be helpful to have another person to add to your network of support.

    http://www.lowstoluxe.com/miscarriage-infertility/
    http://www.lowstoluxe.com/ivf-journey/

    Again, so so so many positive vibes and good luck to you and Blake. You two will make wonderful, loving parents one day.ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 1:12 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you so much for the kind words and thoughts. Thank you for linking to these posts. I will read them! Thanks for taking the time to gather and send these to me! xo, KimReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:32 am

    Kelsey - Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is deeply moving. You both are in my thoughts.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:38 am

    Laura - I am so, so sorry for everything you’ve had to go through. I dealt with infertility for nearly three years, and it was without a doubt the hardest experience of my life. I went through many of the same things as you did: the doctors, the shots, the IUIs. We stopped short of IVF, and decided to pursue acupuncture and Chinese herbal supplements instead.

    The day I found out my last round of injection therapy and IUI did not work was without a doubt the darkest day of my life. I teared up reading your experience, because it was so similar. I lay on the floor sobbing and hyperventilating as my husband tried to calm me. I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anyone.

    I had given up hope completely last fall. I had done acupuncture for a year and I was done. We had an appointment set with an adoption counselor when I found out I was pregnant. I say this not as advice, because believe me – I get it. Everyone has tips or advice when you are going through this. But, a simple inexpensive remedy I started two months before I became pregnant is called Chaste tree berry extract. It’s definitely worth googling. I don’t know if that is what did it, but I’m glad I started taking it.

    I wish you all the best. It is so hard to keep a positive attitude, but it sounds like you are doing an incredible job. You’ll get there. ❤️ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 1:14 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Laura, my heart is with you. I am so sorry you had to endure this struggle as well. I am in tears reading your story. Breaks my heart that people have to go through this. I will definitely google. Thank you so much for taking the time to share with me. THANK YOU! xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:41 am

    Marcella Margareth - It broke my heart reading your blogpost.. Thank you for sharing this.. I may not going through something like that or have some relatives/ friends that like you.. but I hope a very best for you and Blake, I hope the 2nd IVF will work.. Most importantly, please stay positive, stay strong, and happy ( I’ve heard that you need those to be able to get pregnant).. your body knows what’s in your mind.. Goodluck!!

    Xoxoxoxoxo,
    Marcella
    http://www.thestyleafter.comReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:58 am

    Sabrina Hendrikx - Dear Kim,

    Wow, wow, wow … this was so touching & inspiring. Thanks for sharing your story. I had tears in my eyes reading it. And I’m sure it will help others feeling not to be alone. I wish you ALL the best! Hugs from San Diego, SabrinaReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 12:03 pm

    Nabeela - I’m so sorry you had to go through this Kimberly. I’m glad you have Blake to help you through this difficult time. Supporting partners are the best things in life and I’m glad you guys have each other to pick you up when one is down.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 12:05 pm

    Lisa - Thank you so much for writing this. I haven’t talked to many people about my own struggles so I really appreciate posts from other women like this. I also wish you the best of luck, and you are right, it IS GOING TO HAPPEN. It is just so hard seeing all of these baby bump posts on instagram and friends getting pregnant 🙁ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 1:19 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Lisa, I am so sorry you are struggling with the same problems. For a long time, seeing all those posts really made my heart drop. It’s so hard when it’s all just in your face and how everything just seems to effortless for everyone but yourself. But sometimes I have to take a step back and think…. I wonder how they got there. Everyone has their own struggle no matter what point in live you are at. I know it’s so hard to see that, but WE GOT THIS! I am here for you. My heart is with you. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 12:23 pm

    Rose Pesch - Dearest Kim and Blake, I am in awe at your strenght, grace and courage you show us all, by sharing this very personal insight into you struggles to become the very loving parents that I know and hope you will one day be.
    Even though you took us along the road of everything you went through, I have to admit it made me cry all over again.
    You are a strong woman, I am sending all positive thoughts your way, for the road ahead of you.
    All my love to you and Blake.
    Your loving Mom❤️

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    • April 20, 2017 - 1:20 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you Mom. I LOVE YOU. Rereading everything still makes me very deeply sad. But, I am so ready to continue this journey and nothing but good vibes here! LOVE YOU. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 1:29 pm

    Marion - Thanks for sharing a so personal subject with us ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 1:39 pm

    Amy - Praying for you and Blake in your journey! I believe it will work out one way or another for you guys too.

    Thank you so much for writing and sharing this post.

    Keeping you in my thoughts.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 1:45 pm

    Martina - i’m very sorry to hear that! you are a very strong woman and i’m sure you guys will once have a family – never give up! There are many women out there who struggle with the same issues and you helped them with your story. From the bottom of my heart, i wish you and Blake all the best! Big hug from zurich, switzerland – MartinaReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 2:07 pm

    Erika - Thank you for sharing your story.
    I can identify with the struggle in trying to conceive. You described the emotional part exactly.
    Wishing you all the best !

    Hugs,
    ErikaReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 2:26 pm

    Victoria - thank you for this post! I know exactly how you feel!! me and my husband went through this and this was the loneliest time and I just felt like a failure all the time. also it is impossible to explain how you feel to the others and people who have not gone through it just cannot understand the complexity of it.
    the most common comment I got was “to let it go” and this is just not possible – once you are in you cannot let it go even for a second.
    we had been trying to get pregnant for 6 years and then came to terms to go via IVF route (just as you wrote it was one of the hardest days).
    my first IVF attempt failed and it broke me. I was realistic and stuff but it hit me harder than I imagined. it took me 3 month even to start thinking about 2d attempt.
    long story short – we were preparing for our 2d attempt and I already bought all the drugs and the nurse was waiting for my confirmation when my period start. and it did not. by that time I have done so many pregnancy tests so I just could see another “not pregnant” one but after 6 days I decided to do one and for the first time in my life it was positive. I had to do another 5 to make sure. I am 17 weeks pregnant now and I still cannot believe it to be honest. probably we will never know what has triggered that but we are very grateful and happy.
    I wish you and your husband keep supporting each other and do not give up!! my thoughts are with you!

    Victoria xxxReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:16 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Victoria, I totally understand and feel everything you are saying. I can’t tell you how many times people have told me if I just relax it will happen. I am a ZEN MOUNTAIN. I think it’s hard because of peoples ignorance on the topic, they dont always know what is right and what is wrong to say. I have alot more compassion for people trying to be supportive in their own ways now. I am heartbroken to hear your story and your struggle. I am so sorry you had to go through that. This story… is WOW. I am so so so so happy to hear!! CONGRATS. What a beautiful miracle. Thank you for sharing with me. xo, KimReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 3:08 pm

    Rachel - Thank you times a million for putting this process into the most perfect set of words. I’m right there with you and I only made it to about half way through without ugly crying. I understand the pain that sinks so low in your gut when you hear those words “your test was negative.” I think you described the feelings in the most accurate way- only to be understood by the people who are going through fertility treatments. It truly is only something that can be related to by those who share the struggle. I’ve been trying for over a year with the help of 3 different doctors. I wanted so many times to give up, but there is that voice deep down that calmly says “keep going- it is all going to be worth it.” I have kept it very secret except my closest friends and family and I’m learning that I need the community you talked about. My husband wants us to join a support group but I’m scared it will be even more depressing ( the one club of women I don’t want to join). My question for you is how did you get the courage to start talking about it so that you could build that community? I’m so scared to open up something so painful to the public but I know a lot of good will come out of it.ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:24 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so humbled by all of the positive comments and support. I really don’t find myself to be a great writer but the fact my words had such impact make my heart so full. It truly does.I have been keeping myself from ugly crying all day! SORRY! You know what, I know being open about the journey is not for everyone, but it has helped me so tremendously to be able to talk to the people around me. I have been able to let them know what words have hurt me, what has helped me, and I feel like I have been able to educate those around me not going through the process on the best way to approach me. I have been very clear about certain stages asking people to give me my space when I needed it. I will say, I would totally go the support group option! That sounds like it would be an amazing opportunity to connect with those going through the same thing. We are actually going to see a therapist to help us stay positive and be our best selves through the process. So, personally, I kind of blurted things out alot to even strangers. I felt like the stress of it all would eat me up inside. I had to share because it was exploding out of me. I think once you get past how some people might not react as compassionately as you would hope, you can find those people who really build you up in the right way and confide in those people. In the end, I think if you opened up, you would find many more people that have been in your shoes, and know people in your shoes. Not sure if this is helpful but feel free to send me an email with any more questions. I am here for you. Best of luck on your journey. xo, KimReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 3:17 pm

    Chrissy - Wow, what a powerful piece. Thank you for sharing your story. Know that you have helped others who embark on this journey; whether it be a couple in a similar situation or loved ones who are trying to support someone in this situation. I appreciate your honesty. I believe in sharing life experiences with others because some of our best teachers are those around us. I’m so sorry this is happening and will keep you in my thoughts. Stay strong and positive, good things will come. : )ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:37 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you for you reading it. I am so glad you were able to connect with the story. Thank you for your positive vibes. We will not give up. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 3:47 pm

    Christina - My heart goes out to you… life can be so difficult but it sounds like your new attitude is going to really help you during your 2nd attempt. I wish you all the best and will pray for strength for you both. Thank you for sharing… I’m sure this will help many families in your same situation.ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:39 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I truly think is going to change my life.Any little bit of new found positivity will guide me on my way. Thank you for your prayers. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 4:13 pm

    Rita - It’s a beautifully written post about such a heartbreaking struggle. I admire your strength and I’m praying for you and your family.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 4:33 pm

    Linnéa - Wow, so brave of you to share!
    Sending thoughts, Love and strength to you both from Sweden ♥️ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 4:37 pm

    Michelle - I went through 6 medicated ( injectables) IUI’s with Dr. Chang in Brea Ca. Got pregnant 1 time ( for 2 weeks) then finally had to move on to IVF. Had 3 IVF’s with Dr Lin in Irvine CA. first IVF had 12 eggs retrieved, received a call next morning that ALL eggs arrested and did not fertilize. so had to start over again with a round 2 IVF.. had 6 eggs retrieved and 2 transferred at day 5. Finally got pregnant with round 2( only one embryo survived in me) only to find out it was a blighted ovum. a blighted ovum is where the sac is empty so I had to go through a very long 1 month long miscarriage process. so there I go again for round #3.. transferred in 2 frozen embryos from round #2 and received the dreaded phone call 10 days later to tell me my blood work was negative . we finally gave up and now 20 lbs heavier after all the hormones I am finally starting to feel like myself again. there are no plans on having a baby for us anymore. we have resigned to be happy with one another. I am 38 no and my husband is 42. we are extremely healthy so not sure what the reason for the unexplained fertility is.
    its a tough process to go through and no one will understand it until they have to go through it themselves 🙁ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:47 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Michelle, Thank you for sharing our story with me. My heart is breaking as I read it. I am so sorry your journey has been filled with so much heart breaking hurt. I have a pit in my stomach just typing this response. The weight gain is demoralizing. All the people pregnant are growing their bodies for your young little one while the pounds pack on from failed attempt after failed attempt. It’s so difficult. None of it is easy and its a very ugly process. But! I send nothing but love to you. While our journeys are different, I feel your pain. I am with you. And if there is anything I can ever do for you, please let me know. xo, KimReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 4:55 pm

    Marisela - Love your story. We too had to go through IVF. Two cycles to be exact. I shared a little on my blog, but it was very similar to yours. First attempt yielded nothing, 2nd attempt we go 7 embryos, first two transfers were two at a time then we went down to one at a time. On our last embreyo we had accepted that this was probably not gonna happen and we would have to do one more cycle, consider donor eggs or even adoption. Needless to say that last little “hopeless” embryo is the one that took. I know from experience that there is nothing anyone one can say to make you feel better, but just keep believing. We just knew in our hearts that a baby would come to us somehow. I’m due in June. & trust me the TWW is nothing compared to getting to that 12 weeks mark. Sending Lots of good vibes!ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:52 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Wow! It’s always crazy to hear how each IVF attempt can be very different. It’s great to hear and gives us all so much hope. OH MY GOODNESS!! What a miracle!!! This story just gave me goosebumps. Thank you for all your kind words. I wish you nothing but the best with your tiny little miracle. I WILL NEVER GIVE UP. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 5:53 pm

    Ynchai - I can totally relates to your story. I had 8 IUI (totally waste of time but I am too stubborn to try on IVF), several miscarriages, finally I give in to IVF at the age of 37 for my first cycle. 2 IVF, i finally have a baby boy. Total journey 8 years. Many heartbreak and tears but don’t lose heart and keep pressing on. IVF and accupuncture are good combo.
    My advise.. dont let this challenge stop your life.. travel, enjoy time with hubby, all those helps you to stay positive and maintain your loving relationship with hubby.ReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 9:58 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Ynchai, Thank you for sharing. Im so sorry to hear about all your heart break. A miracle baby boy!!! 8 years.. wow. Your dedication is an inspiration. That baby boy is so lucky to have you and for you fighting so hard for him. Thank you for your advice. xoxoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 6:08 pm

    Pamela Dent - Dear Kim,
    I struggled with infertility for ten years in my first marriage, and your story touched me deeply. It’s so painful and heartbreaking. My heart goes out to you, as I know the ache and the longing all too well. When I remarried after my divorce, I decided that I couldn’t put myself or my marriage through that again. I never had a child, and I have made a kind of peace with that. But I wanted to tell you that I will always regret not pursuing it all the way. Adopting, or whatever it took. I wish I had put myself through it until my dreams came true. I have a happy life, but I feel that I missed the most important thing I could have done. I hope with all my heart that your dream will come true. You will be ok if it doesn’t, but please keep heart. Regrets are the hardest things to live with. All the best to you. PamReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 10:01 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Pamela, Thank you for sharing with me. Your comment is so important to me. Thank you for giving me these thoughts. I will fight the fight for us both. Thank you SO much for your positivity in the face of your struggles. I truly appreciate it and hope your life is full of love. xoReplyCancel

      • April 21, 2017 - 7:34 am

        Pamela Dent - i admire your courage and strength. You can do this! And yes, thank you, I have the world’s dearest husband and nieces and nephews that I adore with all my heart. Lots and lots of love! Take care, dear girl.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 6:20 pm

    Johanna - Oh wow I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. While I have no kids myself, my parents did go through some pretty bad infertility themselves and were in the process of adoption when they spontaneously got pregnant with me. The adoption was terminated and they sat on the edge for 9+ months hoping all would work out. It did. I’m your age and proof sometimes it does work out. I told this to my HS friend who went through the same infertility and now has a healthy baby girl. I hope you achieve the same result! XoxoReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 10:02 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Johanna, Wow. You are a tiny miracle yourself 😉 Thank you for your positive energy! xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 7:37 pm

    Kathleen @ Carrie Bradshaw Lied - SO incredibly moved by your story and your willingness to share with us. I know you are helping so many other women in the same situation and you are using your voice to make a difference. What an incredible mother you are going to be Kim! Sending all my love and prayers your way – your attitude and outlook is truly inspirational. xoxoxReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 10:03 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Kathleen, Thank you so much. I truly hope I can help those going through this. Thank you so much for your prayers!ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 8:16 pm

    Amber - Thank you so much for sharing your story and to put yourself out there so vulnerably. Not many people would do that without already being able to write the ‘happy ending’ part. Sending you and Blake love and positive energy ❤️❤️❤️ And looking forward to reading about your happy ending throughout the journeyReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 10:03 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Amber, I thought a lot about it and one day I just knew I wanted to tell my story. Tragedy and all. But, I will fight for my happy ending. Thank you so much for the positive energy! xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 8:48 pm

    Labels & Vintage - I sincerely commend you on your courage to write this honest post and share your experience with your readers. Stay strong, positive, and full of faith! You and Blake will have the family you have always dreamed about. xoxoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 8:59 pm

    Rachel Hoffman - You are SO brave to share your story. I went through IVF and have a beautiful baby boy now. Please don’t give up. It’s all worth it in the end. I’m sending all of my positive thoughts to you — IT WILL WORK. XoxoxoReplyCancel

    • April 20, 2017 - 10:04 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you Rachel. Kiss that miracle boy for me tonight. I won’t give up. xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 9:43 pm

    Margarita Mercado - I could not hold the tears back as I was reading your story. Thank you for sharing. My prayers and thoughts are with you and Blake. Sending you all the positive vibes in the universe. You will overcome, I truly believe this! xoxoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 10:13 pm

    Mia - my heart is with you on this journey.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 10:15 pm

    Lucy - Wow, I’m simply speechless and I don’t know the right words to say, but thank you for sharing such a raw, deep and emotional story. I’m so incredibly sorry that you and your husband have to experience such heartbreaking news. Sending you many prayers, hugs and positive thoughts to you.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 10:34 pm

    Jessica - I am writing this with tears in my eyes. I found out I can’t get pregnant 4 years ago when my sister was going through IVF. She and I have the same condition in which we went through menopause at a very early age. My sister had similar experiences to yours and finally got pregnant on round 2 of IVF. I am very thankful that I am marrying my “Blake” this June. What you wrote about is my future. I appreciate your honestly in telling your story. This is real life and a reality for many, including myself & my sister. Thank you.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:49 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Jessica I am so sad to hear about your medical state. I am sure it must be very hard and that your sister went through such hard times. I am beyond words happy for you that you have found your prince. I am so happy my story could touch you in some way. I wish you nothing but love for the future. NEVER GIVE UP.ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 10:37 pm

    Victoria - Thank you for sharing this. We’ve gone through 3 failed IUI’s, a number of clomid cycles, a chemical pregnancy, and are now taking a break. I’m giving acupuncture a shot along with some Chinese herbs but if this doesn’t work soon, we’ll be moving onto IVF soon. You are not alone. This will happen for you, as it will happen for us too. Stay strong.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:47 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Victoria, I am so sorry to hear about your heartbreak. I am sending you the most postive and loving vibes! DONT GIVE UP!ReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:19 pm

    Tess - Hi there,
    We’ve met what feels like a hundred years ago when I was blogging as well. We did a shoot with DVF. Anyway I wanted to say your article was really touching not only as a new mom but mostly because my son was a result of IVF. I went thru a very similar struggle to yours. Tried to get pregnant for 2 years, I had 6 failed IUI’s and eventually went to IVF. I just wanted to say, stay positive even though it seems impossible. You have love, a happy healthy relationship, it will work work. The doctors will find the right combination of medications and the right timing. I really wish you all the luck!

    Best,
    TessReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:47 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - TESS! Nice to hear from you. I am so sorry to hear about your struggle. Thank you for your kind words. Kiss that beautiful baby for me. What a miracle! xoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:24 pm

    Chantal cocorosa - Hi babe,

    So sorry to hear about your struggles and thank you soooo much for writing about infertility.

    I have a deminished ovarian reserve (low egg reserve) basically I had slim to zero chance of conceiving (being late 30’s didn’t help either) IVF wasn’t even an option for me due to my low egg supply. I was told my best option was egg donation 🙁

    Luckily I conceived naturally and I think it’s because I ate coq10 like skittles. Supposedly it will improve egg quality. I took between 600 and 800mg daily with fatty foods. Other women on forums had success with it too.

    I’m hoping for you to have your little miracle baby soon!
    xoxoReplyCancel

  • April 20, 2017 - 11:50 pm

    Talia - Thank you for sharing your story. Been struggling with infertility as well with a couple failed iuis and our next step is ivf. Can’t wrap my head around it but I hope it’ll be successful! You’re truly an inspiration and I hope everything for you will work out for the best! Thanks again for sharing your story!ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:22 am

    Ashley - Thank you for sharing such a personal experience. My DH and I have been TTC for over a year. I just had a laproscopy, hysteroscopy, and HSG after finding out I have endometriosis. We might have to move on to Ivf too, so thanks for sharing such detail about the process. Your story really touched my heart. I even cried! I bursted into tears at the phone call about the negative pregnancy test. Wishing you all the best and lots of luck in your next Ivf journey.

    Love,
    AshleyReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:45 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Ashley, I am so sorry you are on the same journey. I am so glad my story inspired you in some way. Thank you for your postive thoughts and I am sending you the biggest hug. Know that you are so strong and to never give up. You can do this! We are all here with you.ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:22 am

    Mel - Thank you! Sometimes even just talking about the process is hard for me. Reading your story empowers me with the positivity to keep going. We’ve had two failed egg retrievals… the first we had 2 “beautiful” embryos only to find out 2 days before xmas they weren’t genetically viable. The second time we got one mature egg and itdidn’t make it to PGS. I’ve taken a short break before staring the third cycle because I’m so drained emotionally and financially – and of course physically. I’m sending you a hug and thank you for your courage. Best of luck to you on this tough but so worth it, journey. xxReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:43 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Mel, I am so glad my story was able to touch you and inspire you to keep going. Sending you big hugs. YOU CAN DO THIS. I can’t imagine the kind of heartbreak you have faced. I hope you can come back to the IVF treatments refreshed. You will get your miracle. DONT GIVE UP! xoxoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:37 am

    Carmel - Congratulations for sharing such a personal experience. I was only able to be open about my IVF journey after having my son. I found it really unhelpful to have anyone knowing when we were going through a cycle because, as you said, you then have to relive it once you get your results. I found naturopathy more helpful than acupuncture. I also googled fertility diets and really focused on what I ate. This helps to feel like you have some control over something that is ultimately out of your control. I really wish you all the very best on your journey and I look forward to hearing your positive news very soon xxxxReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:42 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you Carmel, thank you for all the words of wisdom and I am so happy for you and your happy ending. <3ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:40 am

    Jessica - Please don’t give up. We went through a grueling two years of unexplained infertility. Due to my autoimmune issues, we turned to IVF and surrogacy. We were willing to do whatever it took to conceive our miracle baby. I feel for your every word and have been there. We only got one healthy embryo with our first round as well. Our second round was alright and then three times the charm!! You will get there! Sending so much positive energy your way.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:41 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Jessica, thank you for sharing your story with me. Thank you for your positivity. Means the world. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:42 am

    Michelle - Thank you for sharing your story! While I am not at a point in my life where I am thinking of or ready to have children, I’m incredibly moved (to tears) by your post and am hoping for nothing but positive news for you and Blake during your second round of IVF. I can’t even begin to understand how difficult this process must truly be for you both, but I am in awe of your courage and vulnerability in sharing your story and of your resilience and determination in continuing this journey.

    Sending positivity, love and hugs your way!!! xoxoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:51 am

    Bri - I am so sorry that you and Blake are going through this. But I thank you for being so open and sharing your story with us. I wish you love, courage, and strength and of course, wish you the best. Take care <3ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 5:30 am

    Caroline - I love how more and more people are talking about this, because it’s way more common than we think! We are going through the exact same thing with my husband (2 insiminations and 1 IVF down, moving towards second IVF) and as Blake, my husband has been the most supportive individual on this journey, and I could not ask for a better person to go through this horrible time with.

    You said that the thing that has helped you alot has been sharing your story with the people close to you. I’ve again decided to keep my mouth shut since I could not deal with people asking me about the results, but maybe I should consider opening up about it since you said it has been so helpful.

    Reading your story was the best thing, sinsce through all the downs, you are still so positive! You really touched a lot of women with your text. Never give up! <3ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:39 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Caroline, I am so sorry for your struggle but sounds to me like you are one tough cookie! I didn’t always share from the beginning. We kept things pretty private but I just felt like I w as going to explode. I found a way to tell people and also ask for space when I needed it. It helped for me. Doesn’t mean its the way for everyone but I wanted to share my own experience. We were very clear with family when we wanted to be left alone, and the best advice on that is when you let people know, ask them politely if you can bring the info to them. For instance, ask them NOT to ask any questions. Let them have you come to them, when you want to share. That helped us a lot. It took me a while to get to this place. Don’t be fooled. I am working on my best positive self and everyday is a work in progress. I will never give up and I turn to you with the same words. You are so much stronger than you know! BABY DUST! xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 6:03 am

    Jen - Please do not give up, when I was going through mine at 42 someone gave me amazing advice and said ” it will happen, the science is too good” it got me through everything and she was right, please feel free to contact me to chat I am very open about my experiences and might have something that could be useful to you! Stay strong!ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 6:41 am

    Jenn - Huge hugs. I’m here if you ever need to talk. I had 10 failed IVF cycles, including donor cycles in the Czech Republic and New York and even a surrogate. Pregnant twice, but miscarried. We now have our son via adoption. ❤️ i dont know if that’s helpful or hurtful to say. I just wanted you to know you’re not alone. I hope helpful.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:35 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you Jenn! Wow. What an heart breaking story. It pains me so much to see people struggle in this way. That makes my heart so full to hear you found your tiny miracle through adoption. There are so many children in this world that need a home, and that kid is the luckiest kid in the world! Thank you for sharing your story with me. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 7:22 am

    Esther - Hi,

    Thanks so much for sharing your story. Your story is almost identical to mine. BUT… I dealt with this 7 years ago and we’ve since been blessed with 3 children.
    You are so brave to share such intimate details of your story and I’m sure it’s helping so many people.
    IVF was the hardest thing I ever had to deal with and we also had some difficult side effects. But there is hope!!
    Don’t get discouraged… you will be successful one day and I’ll give you some advice my friend gave me at the time I was going through it. I’m not sure if you feel this way, but while I was dealing with it i felt very isolated. Like I couldn’t relate with anyone who wasn’t dealing with what i was dealing with. I felt I would always be *different* but the truth is the minute you get that positive pregnancy test, it’s just OVER. This struggle will later just be a small part of your bigger story. The only difference between you and everyone else will be that you APPRECIATE everything so much more. Every cry and sleepless night with your baby will be bliss.

    Wishing you and and your husband the very best of luck… please reach out with any questions ❤️❤️❤️ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:32 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Esther, I am so sorry for your struggle but I am so happy to hear it came with the reward of 3 beautiful children. THank you so much for your support. Means so much to me. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 7:42 am

    Jessica - Don’t know if you read comments but just had to send you a message… this post resonates so many emotions for me. I went through this INSANE process and want you to know I AM WITH YOU! Don’t give up on your dreams! All the stress, emotions, heartbreak and joy is worth it. I went through a major let down and literally thought my world was over – but it wasn’t. I now have my beautiful twin boys that have changed everything about me. All the injections and pain and stress…. worth every second. It will happen for you! Never give up!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:30 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I read every single one. Jessica, thank you for taking the time to leave me a message. I am so inspired by your story and know my miracle is out there. I will never give up!ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 7:47 am

    Kate - You’ve got this! I’m on round 5 of ivf. It’s nothing short of brutal. But you’ll get through it and there will be a baby. Good luck.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:29 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you KATE! Wow. You are one strong woman. I wish you nothing but the most love and light in your live. Thinking of you. I am with you.ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 8:16 am

    Rachel - Beautifully written and so honest. Sending positive vibes your way – good luck to you and your family! It will all work out in the end!ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 8:18 am

    Kereka Wong - I just finish reading your article and I have to say is wow. It’s like me reading my whole experience of going through IVF, this have being one of the most honest reads I have read of what’s it’s like having IVF treatment, I feel like when I talk to others who have not experience this it’s really hard to get then go truly understand the ups and down of this process. With this article you hit the hit it right over the head.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:25 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - It’s so hard to have people really understand that have not been through it. I am so glad you were able to connect with the story. I am thinking of you <3ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 8:40 am

    Vanessa Stroberg - Thank you so much for publicly sharing your infertiltiy experience. After 3yrs, 3 miscarriages and one retrieval resulting in one egg- we are getting ready to have our first FET after PGS. Your discussion on your concerns of remaining realistic really hit home for me. I’m normally very positive as well but this journey definitely takes a greater toll than you realize until you step back. I’m hopeful I can change my outlook to be as positive as you. Sending lots of love to you & your husband.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:24 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - That is exactly where I was. Exactly. It took me time to get to this place. I know the rest of my journey is going to be very hard. But you all have lifted me up so much. The love in this community is so strong. I am sending you the best vibes I can! YOU WILL HAVE YOUR MIRACLE. NEVER GIVE UP.ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 8:58 am

    Erin - My heart truly aches for you bc I remember those moments so vividly! I have dealt with infertility for years due to endo so it was a tough road for us. We had only one embryo and he is now a happy little 2 year old so I promise it will happen. Ppl used to say that to me and it would just make me sad or annoyed but I PROMISE you will be a mother! Big hugs to you. You are an inspiration to many women!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:22 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you for your kind words. Kiss that little beautiful boy for me tonight. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 8:58 am

    Casey - Thank you for your courage to share your journey. I’ve never commented on a post before, yet I felt overwhelmed to do so now because we had a very similar experience. Rather than try our luck with less invasive options, we went straight to IVF. After two failed transfers, our doc suggested a ‘natural’ cycle – no synthetic estrogen. On our third transfer (and final embryo), we got pregnant and are now due in August. I share this to give you hope and strength as you enter your next round. Do not lose your resolve, but remember that the journey you are on is part of a plan. Unfortunately it is not one you can edit (no matter how much soup or pineapple you eat during the TWW!). My sincere thoughts and prayers will be with you and your husband as you enter another cycle. From the amount of care and love you have put into this so far, it is clear – even to a stranger – you will be an amazing mother!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:20 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Casey, I am so glad you left me a comment. Thank you for sharing your story with me. I will NOT give up. I am so happy for you and your tiny miracle. THANK YOU. From the bottom of my heart. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 8:59 am

    Erica - Hi – Your post was so moving. I have been undergoing IVF for months and know the struggle. Please stay positive and know that your baby is waiting for you!! xoReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:17 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you for your positive thoughts. I am sending them right back your way on your own journey. Never give up.ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 9:20 am

    Kayla LaMuh - I am not a mother, nor trying to get pregnant. Just a 20 something year old ICU nurse. For you to open up about your journey with becoming pregnant is truly special. I know people in this world struggling to become pregnant and going through the same obstacles as you will find comfort in this. Reading through your post had me excited for the phone call with the hopes of good news for you all. After you received the phone call and the devastation you must have been feeling I wish I could have given you a hug. Bless Blake for being there, being so compassionate and truly an amazing husband. I only can hope that through God and the amazing sciences available you all will have the outcome of a precious baby. I wish you both the best of luck in your journey and thank you for sharing.ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 9:44 am

    Sarah A Schmid - You are AMAZING! I am so right there with you; 3 IUI’s, onto 2nd IVF, now diagnosed with endometiosis and going for a lupron shot today (eeek!) You CAN & ARE ABLE to fight this battle and keep on taking each day as a new day. Would love to hear more about your journey as you totally lifted my spirits and its comforting to hear other peoples struggle as well. xoxoxo Sarah from NYCReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:16 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - EEK!!!! YOU CAN DO THIS GIRL!!! I am so happy I could help in any small way. Keep fighting the good fight. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 10:45 am

    Kaitlyn - Hi! I just wanted to say thank you for sharing this. I found you through another blogger and your positivity has given me so much strength. While I have not gone through IVF, my sister did and now has 4 wonderful babies. It too took her time as well. My sister and I are 10 years apart in age and I was much younger when she went through all her infitiletly struggles. I am now older and married and my husband and I are trying to have a baby. We actually got pregnant in February on our own. We were so excited since we feared we may have the same infertility problems
    My sister had. This past April 12th, we met with our doctor at 9 weeks pregnant and got the heartbeat. It was the most amazing sound ever. We felt so great about everything and my doctor had told me I had less than 5% change of miscarriage. Yesterday, I miscarried my baby at 10 weeks and I have a D&C in a few days. My heart is broken and I have never felt so empty. My eyes and head hurt from all the tears. I keep thinking, I don’t know if I can go through this again in fear of the same outcome, but I know I must. So this morning, as reality sets in that I have longer have my baby, i stumbled across your blog. It is crazy how things all happen for you a reason. As I read it, I kept thinking if this lady, who I don’t even know, can go through so much pain and push forward, so can I. I am kind of in a daze still and I don’t know that email makes sense. But I just want to say thank you. And thank you for giving me a little piece of hope again that we can do hard things and we will keep trying!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:15 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Kaitlyn, my heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry you have to deal with that kind of pain. I 100% agree that you did not just stumble upon my post. I am blown away by your strength. You will have your baby. NEVER GIVE UP. Your miracle is waiting. I thank you so much for sharing your story with me. My heart is with you. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 10:47 am

    Shannon - I’m sitting in a dark room with tears in my eyes reading your post.

    I have my two week year old baby sleeping in my arms. I was lucky enough to get pregnant with dear Oliver on my third IVF attempt. After two failed attempts, I went into the third with the “what the hell attitude, I guess i will try one final time” and sure enough we got pregnant with twins. It was the best news in the world.

    One baby didn’t make it past 9 weeks and the rest of my pregnancy proved to be a very tough time. The roller coaster you explain in your blog post is spot on. The feelings you expressed felt like they were coming right out of my own mouth.

    It’s insane… but please don’t quit. It will work! I can just hear it in your voice that you want this. Blake, like my husband, won’t let you get down. Keep positive and try to stay relaxed.

    Things I didn’t different on my third attempt: more acupuncture to relax, talked to my husband about a life without biological children and was lucky enough that he was amazingly supportive of it, focused my mind on everything other than pregnancy, ate well, did yoga, kept positive.

    Holding my baby in my arms, after three years of inferility issues and surgeries and tears and pain and sooooooo many shots, is the BEST feeling in the world.

    Sending you lots of love, thoughts and prayers! YOU GOT THIS!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:12 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - OH sweet Olivia. Kiss that baby for me tonight. I am so glad you were able to connect with the things I wrote. I am looking forward to that magical day… holding my baby in my arms. It will all be worth it. That baby is worth the fight. I will never give up.

      Thank you! xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 11:19 am

    Kaitlyn - I rarely ever comment on blogs, but your story is so moving I couldn’t read it and walk away. I haven’t personally ever been through IVF, but I know many friends who have been. You have completely opened my eyes (and put such an ache in my heart) — I had absolutely no idea how painful (physically and emotionally) IVF was and how much strength it required of the couples going through it. You are so brave and, and your story is so raw and eloquent. You are going to be an incredible mother — one with much wisdom, empathy, patience, and a rock-solid support system.

    xo, KaitlynReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:10 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you so much Kaitlyn. I am so glad my story could touch you and give some insight into the process since you have not experienced it. Thank you so much for your kind words! xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:12 pm

    Gaiana - Dear Kimberly! Thank you for sharing your story and best of luck to you and Blake! Stay positive and strong and everything will go your way! I do have a question though, but if you don’t want to answer here, please feel free to reply to my email. If all your and Blake’s tests were clear and good, did your doctors ever give you a scientific reason for why you were not getting pregnant naturally or via IUIs? I am very ignorant about IVF, but from everything I’ve heard and read, it’s a very expensive, aggressive, invasive treatment (as you described) and it’s usually pursued when there are no other options: couple’s ages might be getting up there, there are major infertility issues (I mean actual problems with anatomy), sperm issues, etc. But anyway, stay positive. Stress and anxiety never helped anyone get pregnant. Sending you all the positive vibes!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:09 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you so much for the positivity. Our diagnosis was unexplained infertility. It wasn’t until we did IVF that we found my egg quality to not be great. That meaning, since the embryos would not fully develop, there were chromosomal abnormalities that kept them from developing into a healthy embryo. Something we could only know through that type of process. We turned to IVF because we were out of options and it was the last piece we could explore to get some answer and to also have much better odds while it was still much more invasive. Thank you for all your thoughts. much appreciated. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:22 pm

    Annie - Thank you so much for sharing your story, my heart breaks for you and your husband. Infertility is so incredibly difficult to navigate through, and it is even more difficult to continuously pick yourself up time after time, however I know first hand that persistence is SO worth it! After a few failed rounds of injectables with miscarriages, we also moved to IVF. IVF proved to be difficult for us too – a miscarriage, followed by a failed FET, and I was left completely hopeless with our last two embryos – I could barely get myself to go through with a transfer. But I did and our perfect daughter just turned one! The moment I held her I thought I would go through the heartbreak and fight 1,000 more times to be able to experience the overwhelming amount of love and joy she brought. I truly found peace in every loss and failure we went through because it gave us our unbelievably sweet miracle, had it worked before, we wouldn’t have her. Unfortunately we are back in the fight trying to get a sibling(s) for our sweet girl and it does not get any easier. We recently unexpectedly lost a baby at 10 weeks and the heartbreak has been excrutiating. However, we know that the only way to grow our family is to keep fighting! Your strength and persistence are so inspiring, reading this post helped to give me the nudge I needed to keep moving forward. Know you are not alone in this battle, and know that you will get to the other side and the joy you have will eases the pain of the journey. I truly look forward to reading of your happy news in the future & look forward to following along as you get there 🙂ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:06 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so sorry to hear about your heart break. It’s never easy. You are such a fighter and its such an inspiration to me. Thank you so much for taking the time to share with me! I AM ROOTING FOR YOU! xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:28 pm

    Katherine - This post is beautifully written and so emotionally touching. You are going to be such a wonderful mom one day and I have total confidence that it will happen for you soon 🙂 It must be such a tough time, but I am so glad to see that you are starting to feel more like yourself again. Parenthood is a wild journey, as is the process of getting there. Sending you lots of hugs!! xxxxxReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 12:53 pm

    Taylor - I am so utterly sorry for the hardships you have had to face with IVF and infertility. My husband and I hadn’t tried for too long before we got pregnant this last August. We were excited, we were pregnant the same time as our best friends, only to find out three months in that the baby never grew past 8 weeks. After two d + cs, one didn’t get it all done, I am now left with uterine scarring. This is called Ashermans Syndrome and it feels like it has stolen time away from my husband and I. I try to stay positive, our surgery is in exactly a week, and after reading your post I know, no matter what, there is a plan for all of us – we just get there at different times. Thank you for your story and humor, and the great book title! I am sending you positive IVF vibes and hope you get your positive soon.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 2:03 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Thank you for your kind words. WOW. Im so sorry to hear of your heartbreak. You are SO strong. I know you can get through this. thank you again for your support and equally sending it your way. Do not give up. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 2:18 pm

    Michelle - ❤️ I have been struggling with infertility myself for the past two years. Our next step is IVF. It can sometimes feel like a shameful secret. Thank you for being so brave and honest in sharing your journey. Sending positive thoughts to you. Stay strong and hopeful!ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 3:13 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - im so sorry you have had to endure this struggle. don’t be ashamed. WE are all here with you and support you. BEST OF LUCK! Thank you for you kind words. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 2:45 pm

    Elizabeth - Thank you so much for sharing this story. I, too, am struggling with this. I have gone through a couple rounds of IUI and am about to start another. As I look ahead I realize I’m not being 100% positive either because I’m already anticipating the moment that I have to decide whether or not to go the IVF route. I have also shared with my closest family and friends and I’m still debating whether that was the right decision. If you don’t share, you constantly get questions about when you’re going to have kids. If you do share, you get frustrating comments that make you angry and uncomfortable. I even had a friend with a toddler who was having a tantrum turn and say to me “Are you sure you want this?” She meant is as a joke, but I found myself feeling offended and angry. For the most part, everyone has been very supportive and I just have to remind myself that nobody is perfect and they may not always say the right thing, but at least they try and are there to listen and be another shoulder to cry on. I wish you the best through your journey. Thanks again for sharing your story. <3ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 3:12 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Elizabeth, I know how hard this all can be. It’s easy to blame ourselves. I think being active about trying to be the most positive version of yourself through this tough process is always a work in progress. It’s such a double edged sword opening yourself up. While being silent not as many people are in your business it can feel so isolating. When you open up, everyone is constantly asking you about your progress and that gets so difficult when the results are overwhelmingly negative. I think so much of the process is about learning. You know how you can better deal and go through the process, share that info with the ones you were open. We asked our family and friends not to ask us at a certain point because it became to hard. But everyone has a different way of dealing. I am wishing you nothing but love and light through this process. I know it’s hard, but do not give up! YOU ARE A FIGHTER. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. means the world. xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 2:54 pm

    Anonymous - Open conversation is so important. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, too. Reading others journeys helps alleviate the pain of feeling alone. Please read my site for some support and maybe some laughs xxReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 3:00 pm

    Megan - Thank you so much for sharing your journey! You are so brave and strong and I love the positivity you are moving forward with! xoReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 3:30 pm

    Lauran - Thank you so much for being so open and for sharing your journey so far. I struggled with infertility for three years and felt so alone throughout so much of my journey. My husband was an amazing partner through all of it and was always so supportive but I was scared to always get into too many of the specifics with my friends and family. Your words that you shared with everyone will help other people realize they aren’t alone in this journey and they don’t have to hide it. I myself went through 2 failed IUI’s and 3 rounds of IVF. My first IVF cycle failed and my second the baby didn’t grow past six weeks. My 3rd round was successful and my baby girl was born in January! I can now truly say all the tears, shots, pain and struggles were all worth it every time I look at my daughter. Don’t give up and stay strong even though it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done. This experience will only make you stronger and make you a better mother, I know.ReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:28 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so sorry to hear you have also suffered. WOW!! BABY GIRL! What a blessing. I will never give up. Thank you for sharing your story with me!ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 5:34 pm

    Stef - Like I said when I messaged you on instagram, thank you so so much for sharing this story with all of your readers. For some reason, this is not talked about nearly enough making all of us going through something similar feel so isolated and alone. In some twisted way, it’s helpful to hear of others experiencing the same thing. I’m praying for you and hope for all the best in your next round of IV, whenever that may be. Please do keep us posted! xoReplyCancel

    • April 21, 2017 - 7:27 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so glad I could tough you with my story and I totally agree. Thank you so so much for all your prayers. <3ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 6:17 pm

    Frances - This is very raw and open. Sending warm wishes and positive energy your way. ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 6:32 pm

    Clark - Bless you and your little family ❤️ReplyCancel

  • April 21, 2017 - 6:40 pm

    Kait - Thank you for sharing your story. XoReplyCancel

  • April 22, 2017 - 12:31 am

    Lauren - Kimberly,

    Firstly, I admire your honesty, grace, and openness. I found that as my IVF journey progressed I became more and more comfortable speaking about it – and, in turn, found that so many had similar stories. Later, I felt it was important not to pretend to others that my getting pregnant just happened la- di- da… that infertility is real and and it’s more common than we often think… thank you for joining in as a voice – and doing it in such a public way! That is really brave.

    Secondly, I want you to know that I type this after having just put my 7 week old daughter back to sleep. That it can and will work for you. My husband and I have an extremely similar story to yours- married 10/2013, started *really* trying by 7/2014 and 9 months later started with our first fertility clinic. We were always under the “undiagnosed infertility” umbrella, which was frustrating and confusing in and of itself, so four failed (and heartbreaking) IUI cycles later, we were staring IVF in the face and I, too, couldn’t believe we had gotten to that point.

    We did IVF – 22 retrieved but in the end only 5 okay to be frozen. We put 2 in and of those, 1 took, but we miscarried at 8 weeks (10/2015 at this point!). We were devastated, but determined. February of 2016 we put another 2 in and ended up with a chemical. It was overwhelmingly sad and frustrating. I’m only bringing up the details bc I want you to know that in the end, we went to another doctor to get a second opinion as to what was happening. In reviewing my file, she immediately pointed out that my eggs had been “overripe” before they were retrieved, which opened the door for genetic abnormalities- something my other doctor never mentioned- either bc she didn’t see it or would never had admitted to having essentially set us up for failure from the get go. So when you say that your eggs are “bad”, I wonder if it’s not something else– if the timing of your retrieval had been a day or two earlier, for example, could your outcome have been different.

    For me, hearing this was revelatory. And, it turned out, she was correct. We did one last ditch IUI with our new doctor, which failed, and then went on to a new IVF cycle – the whole shebang. In the end, the first transfer- of just 1 embryo- was successful and our daughter was born this March.

    Of course, I have no idea if this could be the same for you, but I wanted to share incase it sheds any light on your own journey. IVF is so precise that the slightest tweaks in medication, cycle length, retrieval day, etc can change everything.

    No matter what, know that in the end it will happen and what everyone told me is true… once you have your baby in your arms, all the countless months of tears, frustration, waiting, and needles (!) just melts away, like it never even happened.

    LaurenReplyCancel

    • April 24, 2017 - 3:21 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Lauren,

      I am so inspired by stories like yours. You were able to speak up and spread the word to help woman not to feel alone through this grueling process. It’s so amazing to hear that after so much struggle, you got your miracle!!! Unfortunately I had many eggs that we could not use because they were not mature enough so this time we will be giving them a little extra time to grow in hopes we will get better numbers. So seems it’s a bit opposite but this info is very useful. We did do full genetic testing on all other eggs so at least we got some answers there. We are also trying some different medication techniques this cycle. My dr is one to change protocol to get a better result next time which I am so happy about. IVF is the most expensive experienment but I am confident that we will get our miracle! Thank you again for sharing your personal story with me. Also thank you for all your warm wishes. Means the world. xoReplyCancel

  • April 22, 2017 - 6:49 am

    Cara Stammler - You are so brave! This story is heartbreaking but I have so much hope for you. Hang in there. We are all praying for you! Sending much love.ReplyCancel

  • April 22, 2017 - 10:05 am

    Chrissy - Hi Kimberly, we don’t personally know each other but I’ve been following your IG for a few years after your styling talents came as a recommendation. I knew before even beginning your recent post where it was going. That’s the thing about IVF – I’ve found it connects you to fellow IVF warriors in unspoken ways. I commend you so highly for beginning the conversation here and for being so raw and open with detail. I was a talker throughout my journey and I truly believe it helped and healed and connected me in so many lasting ways. I wanted to quickly share with you my experience in the hopes that it gives you that everlasting confidence boost, positive energy and light, and knowledge that miracles can happen.
    My journey, with the exception of the ovarian torsion (ouch!), was almost identical to yours. I felt the PTSD and pain of the HSG all over again after reading your words. (I wish I got your memo on the Valium first:). My first IVF outcome was tragic for me in that all 4 of my viable embryos had genetic abnormalities. My husband and I were devastated as the drs told us that this could mean everything or nothing for the future outcomes, should we decide to try again. The uncertainty of this scared me to the core. I vowed I would never put myself through IVF again and began to embrace the realization that we would travel the world together and just be the best Aunt and Uncle to our nieces and nephews that we could be.
    6 months later, out of seemingly nowhere, I was ready to give it ONE more chance. I was approaching my 39th birthday so time was not on my side to sit idle for much longer. I never fathomed that I would not be a mom so as much as I tried to be content it just didn’t feel right for me at the same time. After several months of shots, and another 4 viable embryos, we got the call that all 4 were healthy. Our fertility dr was pleasantly perplexed and considered this to be a medical miracle from what she has seen in her career.
    So we waited again to embark on the next steps. As you are painfully aware, the waiting periods and general length of time of the whole process is enough to drive anyone insane. I continued to be open about where I was with my journey. Along the way, I discovered several friends or friends of friends in various stages of the process. As much as I would not wish these struggles on anyone, I found comfort in embracing the openness that we could share to get through this process. The normalcy of this, albeit devastating, also helped me feel less alone and broken as I watched friends and my sisters welcome baby after baby.
    Back to the process: we primed for the transfer. Every step in the process lends its own insecurity – something I wish they could tell you up front. Based on the grading system of the geneticist we decided to transfer the 2 rated the highest. That two weeks waiting for the call was unsettling and terrifying, but we remained as positive (and distracted) as possible. I discovered I was pregnant. Words I’m not sure I ever thought I’d hear at that point. Just, wow. One of the two babies would not make it past 6.5 weeks but the other baby girl was doing well. Fast forward 40 weeks + 6 months and we just celebrated my daughters 1/2 birthday yesterday. I hope that my sharing this with you doesn’t cause an ounce of pain but yet a glimmer of hope and most importantly, strength, for your next cycle. At times, the end goal of your very own baby may seem so far away but one day you WILL be there.
    I will be thinking of you and your husband and wishing upon everything good and happy that this next cycle goes well. And that, if at any point, you feel that you have little left to give that you find that one last push…it’s always there within you, I promise.ReplyCancel

    • April 24, 2017 - 3:15 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Chrissy, thank you so much for following along all these years! I 100% agree that going through IVF bonds you with your fellow IVF warriors because it IS a battle. My heart breaks as I am reading your story and how similar it is to mine. As I continue to read… it warms my heart that you never gave up. Hearing about your miracle baby just continues to give me hope everyday that I will get my own miracle with patience. Thank you again for opening up, sharing your story and all the positive vibes. Means the world to me! xoReplyCancel

  • April 22, 2017 - 6:29 pm

    Tracey - Thank you so much for sharing your story. I know this was personal but you opening up to share with us all your journey can also be of help to all that is going through the same. God bless you and your husband.ReplyCancel

  • April 23, 2017 - 7:30 pm

    Katie - I’ve been a long time reader of your blog (since you lived in Philly, in fact) and I read this post on Friday and have been thinking of it since. I don’t have kids, and I don’t know that I want kids, but I feel so heartbroken for you and Blake. All my fingers are crossed that the next round of IVF is the final round and that you can grow your family.ReplyCancel

    • April 24, 2017 - 12:02 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Katie! Makes me so happy to hear you are still with me on my blog journey from the Philly days. OLD SCHOOL! It means alot for you to reach out and I am so thankful for your support. THANK YOU! xoReplyCancel

  • April 23, 2017 - 10:11 pm

    Mia - Thank you for sharing this. You are sooooo brave and more importantly you gave a voice to all Of us who have gone through all that pain and in some cases without luck as mine. So again Thanks!!!!! Tons Of love and good vibes!!!ReplyCancel

    • April 24, 2017 - 12:01 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Mia, So sorry to hear about your struggles. I am at least glad to give us all a voice. BEST OF LUCK on your own journey and DONT GIVE UP. xoReplyCancel

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    Sarah - Thank you so much for sharing your story, I had tears in my eyes at the end. Your vulnerability and willingness to put what this feels like into words is BRAVE and so appreciated. My husband and I tried to get pregnant for 2 years and I went to countless doctors trying to figure out what was wrong and eventually did IUI which didn’t work. Eventually the 3rd doctor I went to found fibroids in my uterus and recommended having surgery to remove them. It was a huge decision to go through with this surgery as it could have negatively impacted my fertility, but thankfully it was successful and I was able to become pregnant after I healed. I’m now 5 months along and thank God every day for giving me this chance. It was so difficult to not know what was wrong and to see everyone else getting pregnant around me, but in some ways I am grateful for that experience because I do not take being pregnant for granted for a second. I wish you all the best in your journey, I have so much hope for you guys and will keep you in my prayers! xoReplyCancel

    • April 24, 2017 - 3:04 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so glad my story could touch you. I am so sorry for your 2 year struggles. I am SO happy to hear that you got your pregnancy miracle!!! Thank you again for your warm wishes. xoReplyCancel

  • April 26, 2017 - 10:38 am

    Megan - Thank you so much for sharing your story. My husband and I are about to start this scary process of meeting with fertility doctors and it helps to know that we are not alone. We too feel as if all of our friends are getting pregnant and having babies at rapidly comical rates… I almost feel guilty that I struggle to be around all the growing babies and little ones. I’m glad I found your post in one of my many days of falling down the rabbit hole of googling every fertility question I could have. Wishing you and your husband all the best. Sending some good vibes your way. 🙂 Thanks again for being so vulnerable and allowing those of us who need the support to feel less alone!ReplyCancel

    • April 26, 2017 - 7:52 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Megan, Thank you for your compassion. Don’t feel guilty at all. This is your time to take for yourself and your friends should have some respect for the hard time you are having. I am so glad you found my post and it could help you in some way!! If you have any questions, please email me. Happy to help! I know this process can be very scary at the beginning, but YOU CAN DO THIS! Just ask a lot of questions and know that every step you take, no matter how challenging, will get you to your miracle baby. Best of luck! xoReplyCancel

  • April 26, 2017 - 7:22 pm

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