Wanted to share an update on our current bedtime routine. I am going to call this the 1.5 – 2 year old routine since we have been doing this for quite some time now. But we are really in a good rhythm now with it….

  • September 17, 2020 - 10:53 am

    Eunice - Hello! We have a similar routine, but my 14 month old is inconsistent with brushing her teeth! How did you get yours to brush his teeth? I’ve looked online for tips and sometimes those tips work (distractions, singing songs, choosing her toothbrush, etc), other times, she flat out refuses and I don’t want to create a negative experience or pressure to do this, but I also don’t want to create a bad habit of her knowing she can get away with it. It’s a struggle! Also do you have him brush his teeth in the morning too? Or am I being extra… lol!ReplyCancel

    • September 17, 2020 - 5:04 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Sometimes Otis doesn’t want to brush teeth and that’s fine. We try during day and at night. He LOVES thte toothpaste so he has always been so curious and wants to brush his teeth. We also buy different brushes to get him hype for it too!ReplyCancel

As I type, the words are blurry from the tears. My heart is broken. And it’s in moments like these that hope seems impossible. The waves of grief, loss, and utter despair hit like a Mac truck. I am not ok. I feel like I am living the…

  • September 1, 2020 - 8:52 pm

    Ilysa - Your post isd filled with so much information ,caring and love and your loss is umentionable. I know by writing this it not only helps you express yourself and what you’re going through but helps many other women going through the same thing. Yes you are so very lucky to have odis and Blake by your side and I am more sorry than you will ever know for what you have been And are going through and my heart goes out to you and all the women and men in your situation. Just know that there is still hope And that your wishes can still come true. I wish I could take your pain away I want you to appreciate everyday and what you have ad well as what you have to offer others . You are so strong and I admire that and You are loved. Hang in there xoxReplyCancel

  • September 1, 2020 - 9:26 pm

    Kelly - I could have written this word-for-word and thanks for putting down on paper what is going through my mind right now. We have a little one a few months younger than Otis and I just had my second failed FET a few days before yours. Sending much love your way during this surreal, awful, and crazy time. I’m not sure what’s next for us but I am digging so deep to keep hope alive. ❤️ReplyCancel

    • September 8, 2020 - 1:57 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so sorry to hear about your failed transfer. No one should have to endure that kind of pain. Same here. Digging deep to keep the hope alive. WE CAN DO THIS. xo, KimReplyCancel

  • September 5, 2020 - 4:31 pm

    Crystal - My heart is breaking for you and your family right now. I went through similar losses this year. I have a 2 year old daughter through Ivf. I miscarried the remaining 2 embryos from that batch in December. I did a fresh ivf transfer in February that failed. My FET in March was canceled because of covid. We’re planning to do another retrieval soon but I keep postponing it because I am afraid to go through the pain and sadness if it fails. You’re so strong to keep persevering and Otis is so lucky to have such a tough mama in his life. My fingers and toes crossed the last embryo completes your family so you can one day look back and say all of this was worth it. ❤️ReplyCancel

  • September 27, 2020 - 4:48 pm

    DIY Disney Pixar Cars Theme 2nd Birthday Party - eat.sleep.wear - […] birthday was one for the books. In the midst of my fertility treatment (that you can read about here) Otis birthday ended up being such a bright light and much needed […]ReplyCancel

  • November 3, 2020 - 1:41 pm

    Lin - My son is a couple months younger than Otis, and I’ve been following your journey for awhile now! Jet is my rainbow baby – after two miscarriages, we had him and I KNOW with every part of me that every heartbreak led to him. We decided it’s time to try to grow our family again. Last week, I went to my 8.5 week OB appointment and they could not find a heartbeat. There it was – my third miscarriage. Finding that news out alone due to covid was absolutely devastating, and walking into the hospital alone for my D&E two days later was even more so. Trying so desperately to hold onto hope and believe that there is a path for us, but it is SO DAMN HARD. It is so hard to hold it together in front of my son, and so hard to just get through the day. Your story makes me feel so much less alone. The path to motherhood is not easy for so many of us, but there is always hope, and it is always worth it. Sending so much love and strength your way.ReplyCancel

    • December 1, 2020 - 5:26 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - I am so so sorry to hear about your loss and heartbreak. I know how hard it is to cling to hope when all feels lost. I know you have the courage to push on. Sending you all the love and strength in the world!!! xoxo KimReplyCancel

We celebrated Otis’ 2nd birthday yesterday and I still have a smile plasters across my face!! It was the best day ever. I don’t think I have slept…

If you want to know if I am alright. I am not. You don’t think it’s possible to have your heart broken as many times as you do going through IVF. It breaks into a million pieces and slowly, you piece them back together just in time…

  • June 25, 2020 - 3:39 am

    Meikah Ybañez-Delid - Sending you tight virtual hugs!!!ReplyCancel

  • June 29, 2020 - 2:08 pm

    Ali - Kim, I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you all the positive vibes for your next FET and your second rainbow baby! I’ve been following your infertility journey and wanted to thank you so much for your transparency. I’m finally doing my first IVF cycle right now and have read and re-read your IVF posts for advice, hope, and reassurance throughout my process. I just wanted you to know that sharing your story has helped me so much and made me feel less alone. xoxoReplyCancel

    • July 29, 2020 - 4:11 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - Ahh I hope my early posts can help in any way! Know we are all behind you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. xoxo KimReplyCancel

  • July 3, 2020 - 8:17 pm

    ilysa - Enjoyed reading your article and information regarding your IVF experience you and Blake recently went through ss this must have been very difficult to write. I’m sure lots of women going through IVF so truly appreciate your personal information on what you’ve been through.Being a mother is the best job ever and the most difficult job .You are a wonderful mother and I know that you will get that chance to become a new mom once again. Hang in there be positive we love you Remember you are stronger than you think❤♥️ReplyCancel

  • July 19, 2020 - 5:53 pm

    Amber - I just came across your post. It is as if this is me as I sit here with my two year old miracle ivf baby boy next to me. We just did an FET 11 days ago and I have my blood draw tomorrow, but I know it will be negative, since I too did an HPT because I have mentally prepare myself for the phone call. It’s a hard pill to swallow because even though I have my sweet boy from Ivf, I’m still an infertile mother, not able to grow her family. It’s just crazy how all the emotions came back.I have one more 3day embryo left and then I really don’t think we can financially do it again. This is so hard. Thanks for sharing. I normally never post when I read a blog, but your story is so similar to mine, I just had to. Praying for a miracle for both of us on our next transfers! Hugs to you my infertility sister!
    p.s. are you in California? I see those pretty palm trees and ocean in your picture. I am located in sunny Orange County.ReplyCancel

    • July 29, 2020 - 4:08 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - OH mama. My heart just feels your heart right now. It’s all just alot. In so many ways. The courage we all have… it’s out of this WORLD.

      Wishing you the best in your next part of your journey. xoxoReplyCancel

  • September 1, 2020 - 2:30 am

    tamara IVF Center - Thanks for Sharing Valuable information keep sharingReplyCancel

  • September 1, 2020 - 5:22 pm

    Failed Frozen Embryo Transfer #3 - Failed IVF - eat.sleep.wear - […] I feel like I am living the worst kind of ground hogs day since we just recently shared our last failed embryo transfer. On August 20th, I had my second frozen embryo transfer and 11 days later we found out that it […]ReplyCancel

  • October 13, 2020 - 5:05 am

    Pam - YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

    My story is exactly the same. Two year old toddler, 1 failed FET in August, all delayed by Covid. I’m on the second FET now, five days into my 2ww.

    And I will keep going, whatever happens. I have more embryos.

    You can do it! You WILL do it. We both will 🙂

    Good luck. Sending you light and love.ReplyCancel

  • November 15, 2020 - 10:13 am

    Katie - Wow, I didn’t think there was a story out there so similar to my own. I have a two year old son and just had a failed FET myself, all with very similar feelings and situation. Thanks for sharing your journey. We’ve been so open about our journey as well, and I feel the same… next time I think I will tell less people because it was awful to have to tell so many how it failed (I also chose to just text people). My two year old Raymond is such a blessing and we were blessed that our very first FET was successful, so with this failure it just felt so unexpected and devastating. We have one embryo left and it’s a 4bb so I’m now just cautiously optimistic but also trying to prep myself that it’s possible we may only have one child. I find myself googling celebrities who have only one child to make myself feel better, as I desperately want two children. I also struggle with how selfish that makes me sound, as I know how blessed and fortunate I am to even have one child (who is amazing). We’ve decided to wait til next summer in hopes that maybe covid will be better then and I’ll be on a break from my job at the school district I work at. I am 34 (35 in February) with unexplained infertility. Never have had a positive test except with my FET that was successful. The infertility journey just sucks so very badly.ReplyCancel

    • December 1, 2020 - 5:25 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - There is nothing selfish about wanted to expand your family! I am sending you all the BABY DUST and GOOD VIBES!!!!! Dont give up. Here for you lady. xoox KimReplyCancel

  • January 31, 2021 - 1:19 pm

    Susie - Laying here with my 2 year old IVF miracle daughter asleep on my chest, having just gotten the phone call hours ago letting us know our FET failed, and feeling very grateful to have found your post. Parenting during a pandemic is a feat; undergoing IVF during a pandemic is a feat; doing both at once is practically superhuman, even if it doesn’t work out the way we’d hoped. Picking up the pieces and figuring out next steps. Sending hope and healing to your family too.ReplyCancel

    • February 5, 2021 - 4:37 pm

      eat.sleep.wear. - ITS ALL SUCH A FEAT. You are incredible for bearing through the storm. We all are. Sending you strength as you pick up your pieces. dont give up hope! xo, KimReplyCancel